On days like today, I have to steal a phrase from a hero of mine, Glennon Doyle Melton of Momastery.
There are some people in the world that are overly sensitive to issues often having to do with the troubles in our world. And we are the canaries.
Canaries were taken into the mines because they were so sensitive that when they would pick up on toxins in the air and stop singing, their cessation of song was an alert to let the miners know that that the air was becoming too dangerous and to get out.
Some people are canaries too. We are the sensitive people out there that respond to things maybe a little differently than others. Maybe we have anxiety. Maybe we have depression. Maybe we have some other form of mental illness. Or maybe we just hurt very badly on the inside from time to time.
Just because we can't watch news on sad days like today or try to avoid news articles doesn't at all mean we are ignoring or not paying our respects in the world. In fact, it's the opposite.
Sometimes we become so overwhelmed and focused with the tragedies and situations in the world that if we sit and watch the news and allow ourselves to focus on them we overprocess the information in front of us and break down and become despondent piles of mush that are incapable of handling the dishes, the housecleaning, the grocery shopping, the being a parent, and the simply LIVING part of their lives.
Someone once accused me of pretending I live in a perfect little happy world. They said it so disgustedly that I felt broken and hollow and naked.
The truth is I do put on a show from time to time. Every single person I know also does this - maybe once in a while, maybe all the time.
Maybe we are afraid. Maybe the fear of feeling is too much. Maybe we are afraid the floodgates will open and never close. I think it's important to let these feeling out when you can, to someone you trust. A spouse, a partner, a best friend, a therapist. All of the above.
But like Glennon said, the world needs these canaries. They are often the ones who feel strongly and passionately enough to change the world for the better. They are "the crazy ones...the ones who see things differently. (Jack Kerouac)"
I think this can all be summed up best with a familiar quote you've probably heard before:
"Be kind, for every one you meet is fighting a hard battle." -John Watson
And to add to that, we're all really just trying to do the best we can.
P.S. In true Glennon form, this was written from my bathroom floor.